Wednesday, May 5, 2010


So Its the middle of the night at the moment, but I cant sleep, Bella has been sick three times this evening and she seems to have a fever. I put her in a coolish bath and that had seemed to cool her down a bit. She is now peacefully asleep, I am not. I can never sleep when she is ill, I worry way to much. I cant help but think, what if she got worse and i slept through it?

On the bright side Im not working today, so she won't have to go to daycare. I hate putting her in day care at the best of times never mind when shes sick. Ironicaly she seems to LOVE daycare. She even has a best friend. His name is Noah, and he is the older man at four! He is adorably sweet. The other day when i picked her up she told me they were going to get married! However there seems to be a slight disagreement between them about what pet they will have. Noah wants a dragon and Bella wants a dog.

Bella really really wants a dog. Every day she asks me.
"Momma when are we getting a dog?"

The thing is I love dogs to, but the place we are renting at the moment has a strict NO PETS policy. Its such a shame I really wich I could get her a dog, and one day I will.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Love.Life.Family

Hey.Hi.Hello. This is my very first blog. Why have I decided to start blogging? Honestly, because I'm lonely and the idea of being able to express my feelings just like in a diary but also maybe get some feedback from whoever you are. If anybody is going to read this that is.

So I'm lola, I'm 18 years old and I'm a mother to my little sweetie Bella who is three years old. Im sure you've done the math and realised that means I had her very very young, and yes it was an accident but please, please dont judge me. I get enough of that in real life.

I'm looking forward to recording Bella's development in these blogs, because I dont want to forget a second of it. But life is busy when your a single teenage mom living alone and working two jobs and sadly Im afraid I will forget the amazing moments we share every day.

Im not here to complain, please dont think that, Im here to be happy about the three most important things life,love and family.
I would love if you joined me on the ride.